For the first 30 years of my life, I had every reason to be happy, yet I was unhappy. No matter what level of success I had achieved in life, no matter how glamorous my masks were as a role model for others, the suffocation and despair of ‘prostituting who I am for who I am not’,  enslaving for others’ identity in order to prove my value of existence, continued to strike me from time-to-time. That is, until the Human Design system demystified every coping mechanism for my unnecessary struggle, deconstructed my illusion for how and why I suffered the way I did, and finally empowered me to see what is already here has always been here – acceptance and joy in effortlessly being different as me.

After years of self-healing experiences, I undertook extensive trainings including restorative yoga, psychotherapy, movement therapy, clinical hypnosis and functional nutrition therapy, as well as immersing myself in Somatic Education and Human Design Analyst/Guide trainings, DreamRave, Penta, Sociology, Differentiation Degree, and Cosmology.

Yet none of the intellectual pursuits made me any more special or less human than I already am. The most profound training is always noticing what I am in the becoming. In my humble experience of waking up and feeling alive — breathing in the wonder of the simplicity in becoming another magical day of me under the versatile identity as a mother, daughter, or the ‘Nanxi’ from yesterday. 

When I accept anything from the place of nobody and nothing, I am truly free.